more and more often recently, i've been feeling the clarity of life's passing footsteps. it's more clear to me now than ever before that every single thing that happens now will never happen again. every single emotion i feel now will never ever be reenacted in exactly the same way again. so many things are changing and i'm so painfully aware that these changes mean that NOTHING will ever be the same again. so many people have left NUS, or are away on exchange, or stuck in lab all the time, or SOMETHING. and somehow i feel lost in school. like there are just so few familiar faces. =( too few. and with all the people taking honours, i feel somehow like i'm missing something. i don't know. =( maybe i'm feeling like somehow everyone else has moved on to better more advanced things, but i'm still stuck, still at same stage, just taking modules, its like i'm experiencing stunted growth or something. argh. really dont know.