outing today with sam, who has been gone for what seems like forever. had a great laugh, miss those times.
it occurred to me that i miss someone more when i'm with him/her. it's like when i'm having a good time with people then i'll be like omg. i so miss this. which is kind of odd isnt it? i miss a person more when he/she is right in front of me than when he/she is ten trillion light years away.
so i thought that perhaps it will always be like this. friends who dont need to contact all that much, who dont need to talk everyday, who may not always know when things happen to each other, but yet, friends who know that if need be, everybody is just a phone call away. and that if you get drunk, these are the people who will send you home unharmed. if you fall to pieces, they are the ones who will pick up those pieces and slap you awake and tell you to stop feeling sorry for yourself. if you are hurt, you can bet they'll fight your corner. and in turn, you will do the same for them. thanks rouyu, vivien, samantha, nixon, cheryl teo, cheryl choo. three million years down the road, i'm sure we'll still be friends cuz i love you guys so much. =) thanks for always always being there.
on the bus i met an old lady, and bizarrely we got to talking while waiting to reach our respective destinations, and i wonder what would have happened had my grandma still been here. i miss her suddenly. the old lady figure in my life who i never realy talked to cuz i couldnt speak dialect then. what a pity i didnt get to know her more. what a pity she died so young. but yet. better that she ended her pain early no? if i were to choose, i choose death over pain anyday. haha i mean like if i were ridden with illnesses and endless pains and aches, i'd just rather not. at the rate i'm going, maybe i won't see 60, so what do you do? you enjoy life while it lasts. =)
but anyway, it's nice to hear how she has grandchildren and lives with her own children still and everything. sometimes these things are pretty heartwarming. =)
if you knew me you would know. i gave you a key to somewhere else, but i think you probably forgot about it and you probably are letting it sit somewhere, rusting away.