so this year's cny celebrations weren't quite as bad as i thought. it's been so long since we've had any semblance of fun on this particular holiday season. it has so far been ridden with the usual complains and unhappiness. this year was slightly better. the laughter wasn't quite so fake. like i thought, people seem to have mellowed pretty much. i wonder why? maybe the change lies in me and not them? i have no idea. in any case, i'm glad things turned out this way.

why do you always have to choose unhappiness over joy? is it so hard for you to sit back, relax and enjoy your day? why do you only choose to look at the negative side of things? you had things you thought would go wrong. they went perfectly fine. so why can't you accept that and be happy with the outcome? why must you create negativity out of nothing at all? it's like you DON'T want to be happy. please. lighten up. i want you to be happy. life is short after all.

and. i love you. despite evidence to the contrary sometimes.