i've evolved into that girl i never thought i'll be. that girl who puts her boyfriend above everything else. that girl who is a jealous mass of nerves sometimes. i never thought i'll act this way. looking at vivien sometimes with shirlaine or sam with yuhan, i never thought i would one day be the same as her. but i am now. and i know why now. i get it. now. sometimes i feel like i'm yuhan in the sam and yuhan relationship. it feels that way sometimes, like i'm the one who's clingy and possessive and obsessive. i'm scared this will put him off. i love alvin.