everything always seems different from a different perspective. there are things some people will never get. remember nixon, you said the other day that things we never understood when we were young, now i guess we cant believe how anyone can not get it.

i'm feeling this deep sense of disgruntled-ness and it's keeping me from sleep. it's everything i guess. but yet it's all nothing much at all. and that somehow makes it worse. like it's all so trivial, but together, they accumulate to make me feel like tearing my hair out and yet there's nothing i can do to help any of the situations. it's the being out of control that annoys me most i guess. if i could only do something about anything it might be better. but no. it's all in the hands of someone or other. but just not me. how irritating is that? it means that no matter how hard i try, no matter what i do, i can't change my plight. wth.

i dont like school.